I feel quiet today. I have entered a new zone. I am 215. Surgery was at 246 and I want to lose 100 pounds. Welll, I would like more but for the purposes of calculating math as we go, I have rounded off to 100. This means that at 221, I lost 1/4 of my … Continue reading 215
I may have found a reason I am not losing the way I had hoped. My Endo thinks that being vegetarian (and many years vegan) before surgery, and now my post op diet is meat sourced protein, may not be making my body very happy. So my diet is now officially going back to its home … Continue reading Vegetarians/Vegans and Me
Still 220. Its a creepy phenomenon. As I did terrible on Atkins, labs skyrocketed, I packed on weight, I am now theorizing that 80 gams of protein is too much for me. And I struggle to keep calories low. So I am adding more muscle workout to avoid muscle wasting and eating the normal amount … Continue reading Another day, another 220.
All my life, I have been fat. I have soared up and down the numbers. I have spent my life living on this plateau or that one. But the plateaus, I must say, were more of a range. I would spent a chunk of time weighting 243-246 or 197-203, and so forth. It's as if you … Continue reading The Intriguing Thing about Stalls.
Its the next day and still same pound....but.... I awake to feeling like I had lost about 5 pounds. Ever do that? You wake up, sit on the side of the bed and already feel with absolutely certainty that you must have lost at least 5 pounds? I did that this morning. I did it … Continue reading No Calendars
I am not losing. The bulk of what I lost was in the first 2 week on liquids. I did the 3 week stall, lost a few more and then have remained on a stall since. I am doing everything analy (is that a word?) right. So here is my theory. My body thinks its … Continue reading Protein
I am told I can eat anything now, in small portions now. Ok, I have done well with soft mush, steamed fish, etc. but I long for a T-Bone steak. I, of course, can't eat one like before but while shopping yesterday there was a very small one on reduced sale. I decided to sieze the … Continue reading Pizza and Steak
OMG, I am not made for this. I am, sad to say, an ass. You cannot leave me sitting on a plateau on a 10 number. My over-zealous, competitive, focused, driven side kicks in. I find myself thinking... 800 calories... hmmmm... I can do 400. I can drink 12 cups of water, I can work … Continue reading Cant change me
Every member of my surgical team told me not to weigh myself everyday. They said once a week was best. I sat, politely smiled and nodded with an, "of course you're right" smile. They all say this over and over again, I smile and nod a lot. Actually, inside my mind screamed, "You don't know … Continue reading Not Listening
I should have written a post about surgery. but it was overwhelming, exhausting and recovery involved oxy, sleep and days passing that I hardly remember. I will write it at some point but before I give up on a blog that I barely started, I want to jump back in. So please excuse the missing … Continue reading 5 Weeks